Thailand 1998

At age 20 I decided to go to the airport

I had no reason to

I had no ticket

But I took a bag and said what will be will be

I got to the airport with a huge bag

I sat and watched people pass on

Some people were sad to part from people who love

Some people would love a new adventure

Couples in love who go on a honeymoon

Boys and girls who go to a party weekend in Germany

I felt their energy in the air

And i was so jealous of them

All busy and full of ppl

Then it happened

I decided to fly to Thailand

I bought the first ticket out of Bangkok flight

I slept for 14 hours of flight because I was so tired

I landed in Bangkok

Almighty City

I was in shock

The smells were so strong and hard to take

And after a day in the big city

I decided to leave Northern Thailand

Then the fun began

Jungle full of experiences

Full of love and warm people

I discovered a world of goodness

Delicious food

Night parties that never end in the morning

Travels in the mountains

Air was so good there northern Thailand

I loved to walk there alone

Because I would have the possibility to meet so many people

Dear People

Since  I had been there for at least five times

Curiosity naturally breaks there

And everything I wanted it just to explore this country
And I did

In Love

Your great passion

Is getting stronger day by day

Every day I discover another color of you

So many beautiful colors

 Colors of Love

I eat your words to me for breakfast and dinner

Words of love

Your smile makes me excited

Smile of love

My heart beats fast I look at you

I want you

Every possible way

I think I'm in love

In love with you

Missy

Love myself

Yes, that's exactly how I am!

My legs

My hands

My stomach

My Arms

My Face

My hair

Every part gently stroking

Welcomes all the parts that exists in my body

Not ashamed of anything

Feel like a woman

A woman with power

Hugging myself

I smiled to myself

Love myself

Exactly how I am

Mr.Can ~ Part 3

You never believed in  dreams

Or you did not believe enough

You lived your life without a lot of dreams and requests

You called it boring life.

Worked

Ate

Sleep

You have not done anything special

Then a she appeared

She Think you're special

Just like you

The way you are 

The way you make her Laugh

You shines

You love

You smile

Even when you're alone
Silly smile

Smile love

She slowly reveals .... Shell after shell how amazing you are ...

And Now, Do you began to believe my dreams?

My Own Secret place

Where the universe is open to you

Where you can shout to the sky

And nobody looks at you funny

Where all you can do u just do

Where they did not hear the word no

And not even know to tell them apart

Where freedom is the right choice is not mandatory

Where the parties never stop

And there's nothing dangerous

A place where everyone smiles with you

No matter what day they were good or bad

A place where no evil word in the dictionary definition

Good word flooding the place with love

Where no one judging you

And nobody cares What did you wear today

Or are you fat or thin

Beautiful or Ugly

These words no place in this world

They do not even exist in this world

You can walk naked and feel the wind on the body

Feel like the day we were born

I took everything that this place gave me

I loved it

Development and grown

I grew up and became a woman

Not bad eh?

Norway 2005

Rainy winter
Full of white snow
Covering the surrounding mountains
I sat in the Hut
I and Gizmo the dog
Even though I was there alone
I felt safe
Although that brought me questions like how I got here
I did not want to go back
The small window I could see only white
In the Hut was:
Small kitchen
Small bed
Small sofa
I sat by the fire
The fire warmed me
Hot special blanket
Was on my body
Darkness was continued throughout the day and night
Until it was possible to distinguish between them
I was pleasantly silence
Was intrusive silence
I miss the days I could see out the window
The aurora borealis

Kisses

Kisses after kisses
So sweet
Kisses all colors
Little kisses
Big kiss
Many kisses
Short kisses
Night kisses
Morning kisses
Air kisses
Encouragement kisses
Wet kisses
Sensual kissing
Soft kisses
Dirty kisses
Kisses from love
Kisses from you
Only from you

Bunches of Bunches

Of Kisses!

Say out loud

You give me place in your world
Open your arms to me
It is not obvious
Just like I found you
From nowhere
There's someone pulling the strings
Called God
He united two souls
So beautiful
Yes, I feel fortunate
And yes, I have no problem shout for joy
The whole world to hear
That's how I feel
That's what I want
I want you
The way you are

As close as possible

Soon
So close
You come hug me
You come to love me
You will look into my eyes
You will talk to me
There would be nothing more real from the moment me to watch into your eyes
And I'll whisper you beautiful words
Not by email
No written
Words with Sound
Breathing
And every word would be perfect
Soon
So soon
You'll be here
Meanwhile
I'm a little crazy
And a little impatient
But also very peaceful
And so happy
You're back my life

Super market ~ Part One

Super Market is an interesting thing
Yesterday I sat in the vegetable department
I started writing
People looked at me weird
Some of them asked what I was doing ...
I just sat and watched ...
I looked at the walking pedestrians
Odd couple arguing some bread to take
Girl crying for her mother because she wanted a candy bar
A man with a small bag of things
Apparently he lives alone
Woman with huge sunglasses
Probably hides the sadness
I ... I continue to look at them all
And they look at me.....

Beyond 32

Today was my birthday
I celebrated 32 years
Suddenly a thought occurred to me
I'm no longer a little girl
I have new aspirations
The dilemma between what flavor candy I want moved to the
How do I want my life to be in the coming years
Once I dreamed that I would like to travel the world
Then I took a small bag and travel wherever I want
Fulfilling another dream
Then I was sick of it
So I went to be produced
I Produced great things in music that Filled me with great satisfaction
Fulfilling another dream

Then...
I always back To an empty house
I always sleep alone ....
Then I was sick of it
Today I have new dreams
I want to be part of something

Something Big Called love

I want to be Part of you
I want you to be a part of me
I want kids
I want a family
Around the Shabbat Table
Very simple right?

Mr. Can - Part 2

He entered like a whirlwind
Smiled and said:
I missed you so much
Gave me a big hug
I felt his arms resting on me
I felt like he returned from war
After several weeks without him
I thought he was lost in his thoughts
And that he might not return
He's here
He is a live

He smiles at me
He invited me to a romantic evening
"In My house" : he Say
I wore the dress he liked
Spread hair
I put the best perfume
Everything was so perfect
Then ....
With a huge smile on his face
He opened a cans

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(*I like you bunches)

Focus

I see light
Leads me
Good place
I see a pretty face
Smiling at me
Good thought comes to me
Makes me very happy
No more searching for answers
I live just on the day
Enjoys simple things
That can make me feel so good
Good people around me
Fill me with love
I feel fortunate
I like who I am
Frees the words

Action begins

Mr. Can

Longing comes back to me
Longing to you
Whom I liked so
Not only moment of solitude
Not just in a moment of depression
At any moment
I miss you so
Emptiness in the heart of love
I miss the special look you had when u looked at me
I miss our talks

Our nights

Our Days

Your Eyes
Good eyes so beautiful
When you wake in the morning, Do you think of me?
I sent you a star last night from the sky

All the way to you
Special Star
Did You got Him?
If I scream loud your name Will you hear me?
Is it not clear to you what I feel?
You do not have to be alone as you choose
I'm here, take a good look

(*I like you Bunches)

Lioness

She rolls around
Like a ball of fire
She do not rest for a moment
She is looking for adventure
She did not abstemious
She is not calm
She Is at war with herself
Always want to control the situation
She think she wants a rest
And peace of mind
But she chooses not to
The hard way is the best way for her
She was hungry for life
Hungry for passion
Hungry for a warm touch

Hungry for love

The letter

His letter arrived today
After a few weekes that he Disappeared
Computerized Letter
At the end of the letter he signed his name
Words of Love
Sweet Words
He talk about the future that will come
Word Flying through the air
I had no choice
Tears flowed from my eyes
As I read the letter
Now I know
He is so far from me
Now I know that maybe it was just a dream

Just Me

Look in the mirror
Naked
Look at myself
Not a girl Anymore
A real Woman
Pretty Woman
Takes makeup to Put some color
Black over my eyes
Red hot on my lips
I smile to myself
Says Loud good words like "You're just wonderful"
Dress Up
Red dress
Black shoes
Tie a white ribbon in my hair
Just like a doll
A doll with a soul
Soul waiting for love

You

Morning and evening
Night and darkness
Asleep and waking
Small differences
Miss
You - a stranger
But sweet
So far
But still makes me feel wonderful
Not looking for shortcuts
Just want to fulfil dreams
Are you part of my dream?

Signs

Trying to see everything
Do not miss anything
All the signs which
One by one
Turn to me
Light my way
And suddenly you come
From nowhere
Still ask questions
But my great belief explains everything in a simple way
Am I excited again?

Ego

He controls you
He hurts you
He laughs at you
He plays with your feelings
He confuses you
He's stressful to you
He tempts you
He urges you
He wizards you
He affects you
He requires you to do
He hates you
He loves you
He sells you
He's fascinating to you
He freezes you
He's lying to you
He wants to be the king of your soul
Your Ego

Sea

I sat in front of the sea
Caressing and salty water
Like the waves ~ I imagined how I'm drowning in your water
Warmed my feet ~ I felt the heat of your body
I imagined how I and you make love on the warm sand
Like The setting sun ~ I imagined how I was going down in your eyes
Like the endless sea ~ I imagined how our endless love
Keeps on forever
Now I fell asleep
On the sand
I found myself in the waves
Another summer without you

Everyday questions

Do you dream of me like I'm dreaming of you?
Do you cry like I cry at night?
Do you feel lonely as I feel?
Do you think of me all day as I think of you?
Do you fantasize about me as I fantasize about you?
Do you want to kiss me as I want to kiss you?
Do you miss like I miss?
Do you want me to come on as I want you?
I love you
Still
And you ... where are you?
You're not here

*Very old poem ~ Today i can finish him with: "You're not here, and i hope your happy in the place you are like me" :-) (G)

His Words

He was so good with words
I got carried away, excited
Only my heart spoke There was no room for logic
I wanted it, now, here
He wrote words of love
I wrote him poems
Everything was amazing
I believed
Until he was gone from me
Why?
Do not know
For now I stayed with words

Back To Life

The day you left I felt pain
The day after I felt angry
The day after I felt disappointed
The day after I felt lonely
The day after I began to understand
The day after i stopped looking for answers
The day after i started to release
The day after I started to smile
The day after I started to laugh
The day after I started to enjoy
The day after I started to dance
The day after I started to sing
The day after I started to love
Now I understand that since you left I Have my Life back.